If I could
dissect loneliness
the stench of it would
overwhelm the senses.
All those long
Saturday nights
in a recliner,
tucked in a shirt or blouse
that has seen no one
but the wearer for days.
Why bother to even
change it when there's
no where to go but
back into the chair
and forward to bed.
A remote control becomes
good company
for one so remote.
Change is wrought
by one finger,
as worlds of love appear
on a dusty screen of
inadmissible passage.
Romance flickers
on all channels,
mocking and haunting
the soul of one
yearning for what is seen
but seldom felt.
If it were possible,
to separate it
from mankind,
the dissection of loneliness
once analyzed,
would have no heart,
it would be eroded away,
an empty chamber
like those of the great
pharaohs beaten into dust
by endless solitude.
A mummified or pappa-fied
remnant of what
could have been and wasn't.
It's arms would be
wrapped tightly
around itself seeking
comfort in an imaginary hug.
It's eyes would be full
of saline drippings,
long dried in powdered rivulets,
that once formed
a constant flow
into a river of the damned.
Sex organs would
be shriveled up
from lack of use,
just raisins that once
bore the grapes
of passions wines.
Fingers would twitch,
and move involuntarily,
longing for the
company of five other
gently interlocking fingers t
o comfort and caress.
The contents of the stomach
would be sparse,
for one eats much less
when they eat alone.
The liver would be
nearly pickled,
in some loneliness
specimens studied,
]from the constant
drowning of the sorrows,
by finding solace,
in bottles of forgetfulness.
None contains one.
Done contains one.
Bone contains one.
All would be
exposed in
the the harsh light of
the examination room,
which would reveal
untidy hair, and pale skin
from long hours indoors
where the opportunities
to be rejected
aren't as daunting.
Ears would be almost
sealed by the
waxing of the waning,
for a soft voice
whispering of love.
The soul, a mere shadow,
dark and wispy
would slip away
before the scalpel
cut it deeper then
life already had.
The brain would
contain reruns,
as well as erased
episodes of the pain,
of all that love once brought,
played over and over again,
a marathon of what
was and is no more.
For loneliness
is a cancer,
it invades ones self
and eats away
at all that is of worth.
Love on the other hand is a
radiating salvation to most,
but many pass through life
untouched too often,
by it's beaming
rays of hope.
Loneliness leaves
men beating
at a hardness that refuses
to abate into softness,
and women stirring
a softness into
a tiny budding
hardness that only
offers them feelings
of emptiness.
All over the world,
the lonely sit and wait,
surrounded by others, thousands,
who are just as lonely too.
Some have bitter partners,
just upstairs, and are left alone
in a house of two.
Some have old flames
that are burning low,
and are still in
hopes of rekindling,
but the torch no
longer carried,
lies untouched by
passions sparks.
Some have never
known true love,
and have only been
used like tissues
that are wiped
and flung away.
Many spend years
in the facade
of a marriage that
is supported
by only one who is using
the children as the glue.
If I could dissect loneliness
I would cut it free from all
who are bent under
its dead weight,
as a slasher intent
I would run madly
across the world,
severing it's ties that bind,
and when at long last exhausted
I reached my humble abode,
I would save the last slice for me,
and carve away
any trace of the
L of one that torments
even my soul at the
lowest moments of my life.
Art~Whimsically Yours Studio
Matthew F. Blowers III-(c)-2016