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Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 9:11am

God help me I have my life told to the world on here today in only few hours,,, LOLO But thats ok am very open minded person i dont mind sharing my heart an life to the world,, 

Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 9:08am

i was 11 years with My husband before i even had an engagement ring from him, an it was long after that,  we had our first child michelle ,  then 2 years after i had My second child holly, so we had to get married to have the third one, dint want to, but as family goes give the children there fathers last name, so i did, even tho i didnt want to,, but had to, for the sake Of my gals, we got married an then i after i had my last child melissa  i wished i never married my husband things changed so fast  every thing went down hill since that..ourr love failed more an more, how things changes after the ring went on my finger,, i swear the god Ill never be married no more, thats for sure, u though after all the years being together that life gets better with age but it dont, really , it gets harder an boy the god I been through so much, i dont no if i can ever go through it ever again, well for one thing i cannt have no more children as drs order me not to I almost lost my life on melissa,, so,,no matter who i have in my life i cant not give a child of there own, if i do, i will lose my life having it, so drs done surgery on me to stop that part of my life,  i dont want no more  children anyways,I have 3 an thats enough, for me,but i would love to adopt one, . but thats not my point, just got lot to think of back here with me an my husband an kids future, to just drop everything an get out of it, have to make time an space,, for everything you know what i mean, 

Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 8:54am

I cannt Cross Bridges till i come to them Don, I never said u didnt love me, Love to me, is everything an u just cant fall in Love with me or anyone over night dont happen that way ok, It can take Long time to really know if some one really loves you , words that we have talked, I listen to everything u said to me on chats an comments ,, Ok its all in my heart for where u want this to go, as I see it, But ya have to build on relationship to make The life of real happiness  together , an strengthen it. we have never met one another in real That makes big difference .. there while back i met Guy from my facebook as i talked to him like i have talked to you same way Ok, I meet him in real life an he was from st johns,  I talked to him for two years or longer an we both felt love between us, when i met him it was big down fall for him.an me, as he always told me the words like u said he always love me an wait for long time for me, he left his wife stayed my friend an done everything just to keep me  on his friends list an cause his whole marriage over me, he wantedm but when we met one another In real life,  I really loved him for him, But I wasnt his type he told me i was to pretty an i deserved lot better then he wanted me, i cried for weeks,, It broke my heart into, i said why you dont like me, he said, Your one hell of pretty lady i cant handle your gorgeous looks an style,, i said come on by am not that beautiful. an u know what, that was it for me an him , an he told me for few years, he always love me, an i still talk to this guy Carl Porter,  we stayed really close friends an now he moved on to women, nt so pretty, I left it lone he was happy thats all i wanted him to have was his happiness an free life, But dep down in my heart, I cried my heart out why he didnt want me, It took My life an fell into something that I will always think of him he dont hate me just cant handle how beautiful i was to him an how i looked toward him after meeting him, an the same thing can happen with me an u, untill i meet u in person i dont know where this is taking me or if it makes sence, But, I lost man who i always will love an it took the good out of me to love another man as i loved carl porter, i just wasnt his type of gal, as it seamed to me, But thats ok we stayed friends up until now, Nothing or anyone can change that,,having a down fall like that breaks my heart into millions of pieces, which i dont need right now  to fall apart, as soon as i get close to some one i lose them,, thats not good, its happen to often for me, I do need my head straighten out an i do need time to think about lot of things,

Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 8:03am

an this is not place to start a forum  about my life either,, Don Ok,,its for artists  that need there music getting heard , not about my life  an how i live it as NewfiePrincessAudrey mikes gona kick my rear end,, 

Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 7:56am

Don you just Don't understand My feelings I have Lot to deal with an lot to lose,  an i just cant jump up an walk out the god darn door for no reason an leave my husband for another man,  wouldnt give him that option to say I left him for another man to eve begin with if i left my husband which it will happen sooner then u think, Ill be single Mum for while, i cant just jump out of one relationship an back into another one, to soon for me, My heart cant do that U know i have been with my husband 25 fucking years, the first 15 years of my marriage was perfect, after that ring went on my finger, things went down hiil for me cause i dint want  to be married,In the first place, But being forced into marriage, Just to give my children there last name, they was in my name as newman,, But his family dint agree with that U see, I had two kids before i got married an one after i got married, after i had my children  things started to fail cause i married an asshole who really dont give shit about me, Ok,, but still an all he is father of my 3 beautiful children,  Thats Ok.. But as years passed. the love is not there for me an him for the reason of him drinking to much, Recks my heart to fuck u know,I have been through so much in life down grades an what not ins an out s pf everything, its only so much, a person can take from man who drink  Ok,, But take look at Those children, I dont want hurt my kids for anyone in this world they are my whole life that surrounds me in everything i do an create,an hurting them right now by leaving there father, wouldnt be the best intentions right now,  but i know what i have to do for my self to, Thats Think before i get involved into another Life with any man for that fact,, it not all good, u know,  life dont just be handed to you in way that things is gona be perfect after i break my marriage part, ,, there is cousty battles, court, cases, u name it ill have lot more On my plate,, to deal with ,, But things takes time work around the small things then the big things afterwards, ok Things dont happen Over night, not just for another man i dont care if he i gold, Things have to take time an work on it, ., thats how i am,, slow process is better then No success..

Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 7:15am

I can not make Things happen over nIght Ok, I can not judge you in way You must get over your broken heart first, your drawn by me  for the reason Im supporting your lost love Pls, dont fall like that Don ok, you need to get over this grieving  an sadness  first draw by me from all the support im giving you right now, its ok to do that but to be honest, bit to fast for me right now, i cant even think straight,, pls dont confuse me  saying you lost another women in your life, Im married knows that everyone knows That, falling in love with married women,I dont know, but everything takes time, U see thing dont happen over night, I have lot on my mind right now, Lost of best friend, The love of a man i love o dearly to me, My music, My life here with my kids,  My mind is so fregging messed up I actually dont no where to turn  I have lot to deal with beside, My own life, My kids, an school  there education an grades an all,,  My writing music,  trying learn play a guitar  writing poetry, trying keep My house clean every day , im trying to many things in one day my mind is just gona blow Up, for once darlin, i have lot in my life right now, an believe me its not easy have  my own home an truck to think about an everything that i own, jut cant walk out an say hell fuck with everything an probly lose my children over another man, id just die i that happen,, u know what i mean, I have Lot of Thinking to do an trying to sing for the success i want  an all, u know an keeping my friends  happy with the support i give to everyone i try make time an place for everything thats a lot of thing to do in one day u know,, its not that easy, No women in there right mind can do all this in one day, but i do am very energetic person, to do that good thing i am or ill be dead, before my time,, so u know i have lot on my plate then just jump out of my marriage an lose everything i have, i have got lot to think about an it not easy, 

Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 7:00am

i soon have book wrote on this page this Morning Don hheeheh

Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 6:55am

you cant let your feelings an emotions get mixed up an get the better of you, it can bring a down fall in your life when rushing things bit to fast,  love comes from all directions, but real love comes from your beautiful heart that wants to explore those feelings to the right person in your life, you just cant get up an say  i really love you,, not known much about that person at all.. get to know that person who brings joy in your heart, take time to think, that love is a giving thing is this what i really want in life, you have to set an think sometimes darling,love is my everything i share it every day of my life, but the love in my heart for some one, has to be stronger for that person in order to go all the way though life an think is this what i really want, or is it not, we think before we make a new beginning in life with another partner,, some times things happen for a reason  an that reason is think what love can bring to you, live what life can carry to you, sit an watch how love can really fill your heart with happiness,,its different ways love can take us, but if you stay in the one direction love is in all the right places, if your feelings is on doubts,, then life with the love you have will not be real if you end up with the person you though u loved is not the love you wanted,, think darlin, LOVE IS EVERYTHING.. BUT IT TAKES LOT MORE THEN JUST SAY I LOVE YOU,, OK,

Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 6:40am

now Don dont go making me cry this ,morning ok i have a very emotional heart an can cry very easily, but ill try not to ok,, those words are beautiful.. i know what love means to you, like u have seen the way i felt about this person i love so dearly an always will . God brings many things into for everyone  each day,.but he not gona give all the success you want in life unless come halfway,,, u must take control of your own feelings first before you can let some ones elses feelings move into your heart, an dreams are successions of images  ideas, emotions and sensations that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep, some times The dream you have about Love, LOVE is strong word ,comes with many things as they arise in your life every day , but the love of another person in your life,in such as feelings an emotions,That is felt by another way of life,thats the love of your heart, not every dream  is Gona be real, Ok, taing steps to make that dream come true, takes Lot of effort,,No matter how much you love someone, everything takes time to work out,,

Comment by QueenAJ Administrator Assistant! on February 7, 2013 at 6:19am

oki i am smart kick my rear end for knowing all this lololo

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